An Illusion that Felt Like Home…

Did you think that it would be your forever abode? A humble dwelling where you invested so much of your time, year after year. An empty shell of imagination where you were supposed to grow old with your loved ones and witness the beauty of changing seasons. Your loved ones. So-called loved ones! cold to the bone.

It is all flowing like uncontrolled lava. My grieves are hidden, under the veil. It was the resentment and anger that I felt, which had nowhere to go. My emotions cried like a lost child. They found a place in my heart and decided to stay…

My mind locked my heart and tucked its key somewhere safe so it could neither be found nor anyone could play with it again. I did it once, I won’t do it twice!

My two cents were never heard. They were never validated! I know how it feels to have the urge to scream but not find your vocal cord. I know the desperation to remove the fragment of your memories where you could not believe your eyes. I am well aware of crossroads where your heart said something and your brain indicated the opposite. The punch to the gut is devastating!

It feels like my life has become stagnant. Like I am flowing in water and watching as the tides of time are determining the course of my voyage. I don’t know what lies ahead, an oasis that would quench my thirst or a blind waterfall. A thousand meters drop!

It feels like a suspense thriller unwinding every passing day….

Why did the sun set so early? But I was under the impression that I had a place to call it home. I was under a spell, a wonderful illusion that felt so real down to the touch!